day 31 and 32. scary.

Soo today is Tuesday, that means school.
Yesterday was Monday, that also means school.

Yesterday was okay, until English class. My teacher never explains anything in english, like our homework. but expects us to hand it in. We had a writing assignment due that I found out about the night before because she told the whole class in finnish and i had no clue what she was saying the whole time. So yesterday, she asked us to read a story and then summarize it into 100 words. Me, being the eager student I am was like 'oh that's easy! I can do it' .... It had to be in Finnish.and if it was written in the wrong language, it was worth 0 marks.
I came home, wrote it in English and then tried my hardest to think of the finnish words to go along with the english I had created. It wasn't easy. I got 8 words and many hours and 1 anxiety attack later, I gave up. It's frustrating to not be able to keep up with my classmates, and that is just the kind of student that I am. I feel like a horrible person because I can't do any homework and I can't understand what is going on half the time. It's hard. I pushed myself so hard to get that stupid project done that my brain literally gave up. I was frustrated that I couldn't do it too and that contributed to the stress. In the end, I ended up with 8 finnish words, a ripped up paper, some tears and a whole lot of hope gone out the window. After talking to my host mom and Anni (in Canada) we all concluded that the teacher is unfair and Anni doesn't like her either. Apparently she's not a very good teacher, not even to stuents who speak finnish.

So today, I walked into that classroom with a smile on my face, nothing to hand in, and the thought that I am an exchange student and she can not expect me to catch on that quickly. I have been here 1 month today. No, I am not fluent. Yes, sometimes I can put together sentences and I can have a very short conversation with a friend but No, I can not write 100 words in Finnish about Parkour.

That is my exchange student mentality.